The month dragged on. The classes were boring but friends always made the day interesting. And it seemed like she had finally broken free, her spirit rejoiced and her body tried staying on the alert. She tried driving the thoughts as they came, and it was not easy. Her body seemed calm, or so it seemed. And to her, all was good and fine; no more self-pleasuring. But two weeks and five days after declaring her last self-pleasuring attempt, after sleeping all through that day, she lay back on the bed by 2 am, and the thoughts came and flooded, despite her efforts to drive them off. Her seemingly calm body went into overdrive, and the deed was done. A wave of guilt engulfed her…………..and somewhere in the shadows she could hear the enemy laughing.
He decided that this month, no smoking, no drinking, strictly. He stopped moving with a few more of his friends who did the same and tried drinking more water, going to the gym, anything to keep his mind off cigarettes and beer. He seemed to be doing fine, everything looked under control. He still played his basketball in the evenings, still went to church to listen to God’s word. He felt cleaner, felt like he had crossed the seemingly impossible-to-cross border between booze wreck and a true believer. But one evening, after playing basketball, he was going home when he ran into a few friends who were going to celebrate the birthday of one of their girlfriends. They dragged him along, only for him to get there and discover the only drinks available were alcoholic. A glass won’t be bad, or so he thought, but his body, happy to see its comfort once more, went into overdrive. He ended up on the doorstep of his door, heavily drunk with a cigarette stick in his hand. On the outside he looked a super-mess, but inside he was crying, feeling so bad, recoiling from the verbal lashes of the enemy who never seemed far away to gloat……………
What do I want you to learn from this?
First, addiction is not something that has to do with striving to achieve physically-set goals alone, it’s something that has a spiritual angle attached to it. It’s not something you can break alone, it’s something that requires you to partner with God, because He is the only one who can actually break it. Yo just have to give Him access into your life and acknowledge that you need His help. At this point, I have to warn you that it won’t be easy. Addiction is one of the chains the devil uses to claim ownership, and of course he won’t be so happy to see you go. He will try every possible means to make it hard for you to break free, but this is where you have to keep trusting God, guarding your heart, not by personally-set goals alone, but also with the Word of God. The first step is always the hardest, and I had to go through this as well. Sexual urges can be controlled, you don’t have to wait for them to load 80% before you start driving them off; at the slightest knock on the door of your mind, blast them off. The Bible makes us realize that “by strength shall no man prevail” and also “Flee all youthful lusts”. To further drive it home, Peter tells us, “Resist the Devil and he will flee from you”.
to be continued………..
Efunnuga Henrietta Adedayo